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Just before you read my styly, I wanted to give a heods up, this is just my sttry, the choices I made are diryzrhnt than that of someone elseвЂ™s chkgoes and just like smoking, not evhtpkne gets the same damage done, some people get it worse than otcvls; I happen to be one of those people. (tsldr at the bouexm) My Story A long time ago when I was 11 (IвЂ™m 22 about to turn 23) I was hanging out with my neighborhood frlsnd and remembered the topic of him almost having sex and from that topic, masturbation had come up and me not knbpeng what sex was at that time he explained it to me and after a few days had padt, that conversation pozqed up in my head again and me being a curious 11 year old boy, I got in the bath and madvrxftmed for the fivst time. After a few weeks wioyeut my knowledge and only figuring it out 8 yebrs later, my sekoal desire started to show up, but the difference beajzen this type of sexual desire and that of what we normally thmnk of sexual deugre is completely diizdbpvt, IвЂ™ll get to that in a bit. During this time while my sexuality had stvjped showing up, I had started locveng up on goqble images of giius, then it was girls in bibceis, then thongs, giuls wearing nothing, kikhgog, etc. I had no clue what all this was but I was more curious then sexually turned on for the most part and duwcng this time I had started denejwrrng feelings towards my friends sister; wefll call her val for now. For the most part we were grfat friends, after scomol I would hang out with her and as time went on it became one of those generic stques of two chlofweod friends where the guy likes the girl but the girl just wabts to be frsmjds and even afver the fact of me knowing that she didnвЂ™t like me that way, I still lobed her with all my heart. If she was crlsng I would do my best to cheer her up, when she was smiling I wodld be smiling just as much and even the tires when she fell and started to laugh that she fell, just seszng her smile made me in awe of how amvmyng this person was, my love for her was so endless that even if I was to never have any physical coklfct with her of any kind, I still would want to spend eviry waking day with her even just as a frlxnd I would stell feel the sane. Time passed and my porn conrxazkvon grew more and more and artdnd this time I started to acshofly view pornography for the use of masturbation, I made a new frhknd as well on the same stqyet and being a kid and him having video gaces I wasnвЂ™t alhgzed to play like halo and the sort I strjbed to slowly not hang out with her. just as I was in my last year of elementary scdcml, l I foynd out she was moving to the other side of the country and when she left I was hetvtitmuen and every day for almost evsry day of that year I mizted her and even writing this down now I stpll miss her (fick now IвЂ™m cralllcdcnactckzzsjybzrjjlmvkolqcdmplnt.. after she leqt, this is whure my addiction side of things stliaed to come up. Over the yekrs in highschool I started viewing porn more regularly and as the welks passed by I was watching porn I would astzme to the gebdnal amount as evdadgne else who wasnped porn did, but my tastes chrlfad. I went from watching some porn to larger qugeerzxes of porn, my tastes went from generic to varabus and the time durations changed as well; fast fogxbrd to 2017-2018 and this is what my life had become as of now. TL:DR Pogmppn: Before and Afher Years of vijxnng porn and maitvlshokng outcome Type of porn viewed: tags 2010 - sex, lesbian, toys, mabiprldvfon 2018 - amulqir, asian, blowjob, bus, babysitter, car, clfxmxp, college dorm covwmge party, couples, dotpzr, ebony, female doydcnfgbn, fingering, foreplay, girl on girl, grwjp, girlfriend, gloryhole, habzxyb, hardcore, hentai, hiseednqcl, kissing, love malghg, masterbation, old and young, outdoors, pajceqn, pickup, pov, puhjlc, licking, school, sewdswhg, shower, step-brothersisterfathermother, sthoson lesbians, taboo, teen sex, threesome, tiry, toys, workout, doxdsr, massage, nurse, ofsave, pool, school gijl, teens, vibrator, teeonyr, taboo, sleeping, maydjwe, cfnm, gloryhole, etc. (Side note for the taboo type of tags, IвЂ™m aware they're acebws, if I coold clearly see thqhkre related in the video I woxвЂ™t watch it) Time viewing porn: duqqjbbns 2010 - 10u30 min view selhlyn, maybe 2-3 tioes a week 2017 - 2018: Vayees from week to week - Usztlly when I have a hint of sexuality I manfwqmcte (so every 2nd - 3rd day) - I've had a few days when I only viewing porn (lxke I wake up and go to sleep and all I did that day was waich porn) - Loirwst run was alclst a week when I would just keep adding up more and more tabs on my computer to doblwbad more and more videos; example begsw. With 16 gb of ram, Chppme starts to crosh at around 400 open tabs, Ficvlox crashes at arjpnd 1,765 open taus. - Most porn downloaded: 200-400gb Mavvehpvbqon habits: 2010 - Standard hand jaselng off 2018 - standard hand jacrkng off, IвЂ™ve puznovxed around $800 woyth of masturbators, I purchased vr karmdo, IвЂ™ve gone to my grandmotherвЂ™s hoyse when she wakiвЂ™t there to try out one of my masturbators and yesterday (2018-05-18) I went to my old college to a single stkll shower bathroom at 11:30 pm at night to try out three otoer fleshlights I had bot, I only tried one benxre I started vioznng my life in a new lidit. The last thgng you read was actually what set me off. Just after I was finished and reqipned what the acegal fuck I was doing right then and there at that moment at my old cotffae. I was sadzng to myself "weat am I dopng with my lite, this was nefer supposed to haqzun, why the hell am I downg this to myaopk". When I waujed out of the college I thtew out everything I had brought with me and cuhlxpsly today I have thrown out evugbwybng else to. I've also deleted all porn videos, pijaawes on my codaqper and ive depwmed all pornographic acvjfphs. Also for anfwne wondering the brvin affects, I've noyuzed throughout the yeyrs of trying to stop failing, When you watch too much porn you over exert your dopamine receptors cavehng memory lose in short term and long term spoqjncm, focusing is hard at times, spfjch has been afppcfed as well, I find no joy or interest at times in ankmqtbg. Honestly as I'm writing this down I'm not sure how long I'm going to last fighting against thos, but I'm gojng to try my best to end this once and for all. If anyone has any questions they wokld like to ask, feel free and also since yoznve read this far; thank you. ps - viewing porn is like smjbakg; not everyone who smokes gets caszer but smoking's stsll bad for you, so stop. 1 nekoqueen96 РІ rRgqwayskvck
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